Current escape….

I haven’t read a book for a while and I’m trying to widen my collection of literature. Admittedly

 I haven’t ventured out to get anything different I’m looking for recommendations. I’ve compiled a wish list of

books of interest (as I write it only has one book on but its a working progress!)

 

I’ve begun reading tonight ‘Dead Ringer’ by Lisa Scottoline. I’ve only had the chance to read one chapter thanks to the boys. But at first glimpse it seems different to my normal reads. It’s about a lawyer/solicitor and seems a little legal. Not sure where its heading I try not to read much of the back, only when buying and I normally forget by the time I get to it. If I’ve bought  it I must of been interested in it. So we’ll have to see  how it goes, I’ll keep you updated.

Songs of the day

I was going to do a top ten sort of thing and then realised that it dramatically filters out some great music. So I thought I could share a few songs each day or so with you. It depends on my mood as to which music I’m in tune with. You will notice however that I’m quite versatile and quite proud of it. As with my book selections I’m always interested in widening my music collection and experience new things. So as always please feel free to make suggestions.

• This is a big favourite for me Johnny Cash- Hurt. this was originally done by Nine Inch Nails but I definitely feel Johnny has made this his own.
• This is a local band which I hope are going on to better things. I’m a massive fan and would recommend seeing them if you get the opportunity, and the guys are great guys. Isolated Atoms- How I’ve Tried This vid is when the lads went to LA and performed at the Whiskey a Go-Go Bar!
• I absolutely love this lady! Florence and the Machine. Her first album Lungs is amazing and Cosmic Love is my favourite off the album. Finally shes released new stuff but it was a long time coming I haven’t yet heard any of it so it may end up on here….or maybe not! You never know.

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Need to do more…..

Downloaded the WordPress app for the blackberry last night. Seems good so far. I did however have a minor setback. I decided to download this at 2am this morning when I couldn’t sleep and went further as to document by thoughts of the night etc. Saved it as a draft as I hadn’t used much punctuation or capital letters so I need to clean it up before posting. I’ve gone to post it this morning and I’d only wrote it all in the wrong place! Nothing was saved at all lol, but at least now I know where I went wrong. I’m hoping the app will make my blogs more spontaneous and more relevant to my immediate thoughts instead of sitting at night trying to think of what to blog about. It’s strange how I’ve spent so much time searching for the perfect blog site and it seems blogging doesn’t come as easy as it once did. Maybe I’m just over thinking it all. I need to develop the blog too, add more of my interests etc. I just need to familiarise myself with WordPress a little more, if anyone knows of any good help sites/blogs that would be appreciated. I have tried the ‘official’ help guide which was okay but any further help as I said would be appreciated.

 

Well I’m back to work tomorrow!! I’m looking forward to it and dreading it as well. I’m having to be realistic and I know that if two hours cleaning wears me out then working 9-5 tomorrow is going to exhaust me! But a change of scenery and seeing my amigos will be good for  me and they are good at letting me pick what I want to do, they know I won’t take the piss and just pick easy jobs all the time. As long as I’m busy I’m happy, it’s just going to be physically draining. But hey-ho I’ve gotta get back into the swing of things!

My Book Wishlist

A list of books that I have seen recommended on here or anywhere else for that matter. I’m trying to deviate from my usual crime thriller genre, not completely but a little literature education can’t hurt lol right?

• Peace is Every Step by Thich Nhat Hanh (as seen @ I Call it the Unremembered)

Ramblings of the day…….

So far today has been uneventful but fruitful. Well that is to say I’ve got most the laundry done. I’m gradually starting to feel human again, and thank god as I’m back to work Monday. It’s going to be one hell of a week, I can feel that already. But I do need to throw myself back into life and now I’m feeling considerably better I’m eager to do so. Like I’ve said before I don’t ‘do’ ill. Also my birthday is fast approaching and it would be nice to celebrate in some sort of style instead of being in a zombie state. I dropped a very subtle hint to the other half today about my present. Well if I’m honest I just came out and told him exactly what I wanted. He is disastrous when it comes to presents. About two years ago I couldn’t take it anymore and just told him I knew he meant well but I’ll just tell him in future what I want and that’s that! So my ‘suggestion’ this year is a Kindle, you know one of these e-book thingy. Now some people maybe surprised but I’ve struggled with this decision. I’m an avid reader and have loved books since a young age, I try to instill this into my boys as well. I love the way I lose myself in a good book. Frustratingly I would read more (ie in my lunchtime at work, whilst travelling) but it is a chore carrying some of the huge books around, even with the size of my handbag (akin to Mary Poppins bottomless bag)! Another downfall is the hunt in the charity book shop. I love trawling through my local book shop for my favourite authors and new ones. So will a Kindle kill this? Are paper books a thing of the past now? Is this good or bad? An argument for the Kindle is that in time it will prove to be more eco-friendly I suppose. How much paper is used to publish copies of just one book? So surely reducing the use of paper is good. A possible negative to the Kindle would be what does this mean for writers? Would it make it easier or harder to be published? There is a definite threat to book sellers and i do believe in helping the ‘little’ guy, I very rarely buy books new, I either buy from the market or my local charity book shop. But this would inevitably cease due to the Kindle. Which brings to mind another plus of the Kindle- storage. My house isn’t very big and is already overrun with all the boys crap. My little designated shelf area is, to say full is a understatment. I’m balancing books where ever I can, and its looks unsightly, but these are books I cherish and have found some escape from so they’re not going anywhere. Well once i download them for my kindle then they can go the book shop! What’s your opinion of the pending death of the paper book? Is it good or bad?

 

I will begin a sort of book review or record shortly but at the moment I haven’t been actually reading anything which is unusual for me. I do have periods though where I won’t touch the laptop for a week or pick up my book for a few days. But thinking about it I haven’t read anything in about a month, must be my concentration levels. I’m not going to mention past books I’ve read as I want the potential ‘review’ to be fresh accurate. I don’t know how I’ll set it out yet but it maybe of interest to someone. I don’t have an extensive variety of books I read, its mainly crime thrillers, but lately I feel I maybe missing out on some delights. That may possibly be the force that also urged me to blog again. I am searching through here for interesting blogs and have found a bountiful selection of different topics. The joy I found with WordPress!! I’m also going to use here to find new books and authors. So any suggestions you would like to make please feel free. I’m going to make a conscious effort to read any book, which will be difficult I know and in some cases I know I will be unable to complete some books but if I don’t make the effort I will never know truthfully. I’m trying to develop and educate my brain- trying being the operative word lol! 

 

Well tonight should be fun. The other halfs daughter (from precious marriage) and her fella are coming over to watch paranormal Activity 2. I’m going to see number 3 in a week or so with my work mates, never seen a ‘horror’ in cinema before so should be good. I love it though watching horrors with the other halfs daughter. She makes me laugh so much that I’m concentrating more on laughing at her than getting freaked out.  Just the laughs I need after the fortnight I’ve had plus its fitting for Halloween. I’m unsure yet whether I’m doing the treat or treating thing with the kids. They love it but I’ll have done a full day at work after two weeks off ill and I know I’ll be shattered, plus it means a trip for some costumes. I normally love Halloween and make quite a big deal. And because it’s not as big here in the UK as it is America the look on kids faces when I open the door. I’m always in some sort of costume and the hallway is kitting out looking like a dungeon. Theres a table to the side where they get their treats from, three different bowls: cold spaghetti with jelly in it; just jelly with spiders and other plastic creepy crawlies; flour with a lil spaghetti. All have lil bags of sweets inside for the kids to get. They love it!! But it’s so much work and I’m just not up to it this year. Maybe next year I can make it up to the kids and throw a Halloween party? At least then there’s a better reason for all the mess and work, not just for some trick or treaters. Do ‘celebrate’ Halloween? If so how? Feel free to share any thoughts you have about Halloween?

Well its Friday…….

I have been sitting here since late afternoon, pondering on what to blog about tonight. I think I’m over thinking it when I never used to. So at 10pm at night I’ve decided to just see what comes flowing through my finger tips.Today has been a bit weird but there again the last two months haven’t been exactly normal for me either. Since mid August I’ve had this stupid illness. I can’t stomach the smell or thought of food and even when I have an empty stomach I’m vomiting. This then leads eventually to the zombie state from lack of food and energy. My GP has been wonderful and honest with me- he hasn’t a clue! My blood tests have been fine apart from my ESR rate which was mega high, this shows up inflammation inside somewhere apparently. But this has become within normal range now with medication. So it’s a case of trial and error to diagnose me! Nothing is ever bloody simple with me! Anyhow this is entering its third month and I’m feeling low. I’m obviously tired and drained but I also want to bloody well know what the hell this thing is! Everytime I think I’ll get some answers I end up with more questions. Like I said I’m low and I go and get a throat infection! This knocks me straight on my arse! The throat infection triggered off my vomiting again making it virtually impossible to keep my medication down to stop all this, so for two weeks I’ve been laid up feeling sorry for myself one minute and then wanting to get up and go but not being physically capable.

 

So I am now on my third day of no vomiting thank god! And I’m just starting to feel human again. This morning I got myself washed, dressed and then took a depressing look around. The kids have been off school for a week and the other half has been looking after me, them and trying to keep on top of the day-to-day cleaning. But Jesus did this place need a spruce up. A job that would have normally took me an hour tops took me two hours though. I hoovered the house and cleaned the kitchen and boys room. And that took me two hours?? And i was bloody cream crackered afterwards. You may guess from my moan about ti all that I’m not used to being ill. I allow a mandatory cold every winter and that is all. But recently I am falling weak to these ailments. Last year I was sent home from work as I nearly fainted from pain in my side. I was sent for x-rays and I had a lung infection! Oh no I don’t get a chest infection it has to be lung!! Like I said earlier nothing is simple with me.

 

Now I feel bad that my second post on here is a rant about my ‘illness’. Not a great introduction really, but I did warn you it would be what flowed from my finger tips.  

 

Another thing that has been troubling my lil brain lately is my career. For the past 7 years I’ve had the pleasure to work in my local doctors surgery. First as a receptionist then taking on some admin duties. When on maternity leave a post became available within the Dispensary and I went for it. That was four years ago and  although I do have days where its mundane I do enjoy my job. But……(there’s always a but) I’m always one for advancing.  I never took my GCSEs due to reckless teenage years but since I’ve been working (age 17) I’ve always advanced within my role. I have a friend who was a mature student at university and spoke about how life changing it can be, not just due to whatever course you do but also the people you meet. Since then its been a constant thought in the back of my head. However I can’t just go to University-I need to find a course that would satisfy a major life change. First I thought of within my current job role with medicine. So I look into pharmacist degrees- needs mandatory GCSEs. So that’s put on the back burner. Then during one of our regular drunken discussions a dear friend and I began talking about Social Workers. This has always been a path I love to take but always thought I would get too personally involved. But during our discussion we concluded that there were other sides to the job which would mean I could branch out to different departments as such. So I look into Social Work degree. I find one locally and the course sounds amazing. But again GCSEs needed and 400 hours within the care community! I am starting to believe I should focus my efforts somewhere else. I was toying with the idea of opening a shop either on the web or a proper shop but as with everything money I have not got is needed. I don’t know maybe I should just go with the flow and see where i end up?

Hello and Welcome!

Good evening all you people out there. This is my first day using this site for my blog, so I’m still trying to navigate my way around the place. It’s been years since my last blog. I used MSN then and had quite a successfull page. It was nice to have so many people read and take interest in what I was saying. Don’t get me wrong I rarely wrote anything of importance. You’ll find me very random at times, I’ll blog about anything that has caught my attention on that particular day or something from my past that I find relevant enough to share with you! I 100% encourage any and all feedback and interaction, be it good or bad. A battle of the ‘so-called’ minds isn’t a bad thing!

Well I may as well give you an insight into the woman behind the ramblings to come. In about two weeks time I’ll be 29 Da Da Dah!! The beginning of the last year of my twenties, of my youth? To be fair there are a few things I want to get done in this year, such as get my driving license, but I’m not dreading it as much as I was lead to believe I would. Most women make such a to do about the pending 30 , and you assume (and are told) that until you reach this stage yourself you don’t fully comprehend it. Well unless its gonna be a sudden slap in the face I haven’t felt it yet! I wonder though if this is a result of being in situations of late that have made me stop and look at my life. I’ll explain more another time about these though. Don’t need to spill everything just yet!

I suppose I should just get the basics covered. I’m a mother to two boys, Nathan 4 and Connor 9 in a couple of weeks.These two are the best things in my life! I’m not a perfect mom and their not perfect boys but we work it well. I’m in a relationship with their Dad Steve whom is 25 years my senior. Yes you read that correctly he is 54 and we have been together for 12 years now. I’m sure we’ll hit on this subject again at another point. I work full time as a Dispenser in a Dispensing Doctors, this is basically a pharmacy on the doctors premises but we aren’t a pharmacy as we have no pharmacist, we have the doctors. Steve stays at home and has the kids and is the ‘house tart’ as we like to put it lol. To be fair he’s better at the house work stuff than I am. I find enjoyment in going out and listenin to live music as well as a spot of clubbing. I enjoy games such as Final Fantasy and sadly any sort of Sim style game, if I can control and build and progress I love it. Most people I know just don’t get it and find it boring but hey-ho each to their own! I love reading, any sort of thriller, crime, mystery is right up my street. I enjoy most types of music and love a good old sing song, especially when I’m cooking.

Right well I’ve tried to cover all the niceties- the boring bits which seem necessary- so I hope I haven’t bored you too much and that you’d tune in again. I’m off to look at some of your lot blogs and see what else I can do to mine.

Evening to you all. ‘Til next time…………….